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So I truly don’t remember the last time I actually wrote something down on here. I feel like things have just been very hecktic as of late. I am more stressed then ever. And I mean just stressed about EVERYTHING. Its cray cray dude. So first and foremost lets get up to date shall we?
Okay so remember how Corey and I werent even talking, like at all. We sometime around new year actually I think it was new years eve we started talking. At first it was like we would talk about once a week to around two or three times a week to us hanging out again. And as awkward as I thoought it was going to be hanging out with him, it was and wasnt at the same time. I mean we had a whole hell of a lot to discuss and we did and we still are. I mean last week we both spent the night over a friends house and we stayed up talking all night as if we never broke up. It was actually refreshing. The thing is, we both know that we want to be together and we both know that we have our own little issues that we need to work out. I know that it will take some more time to fully fix things with him, but I am faithful that it will all work out in the end. Im just glad that he wants to be in this with me. Like its really weird being so in love with a person and having them be in love with you but not showing it the way they should. Its weird being the “adult” in the relationship, it’s weird having to make certain decisions that I probably am too young to be making. But I’m really glad that I found the person I want to be with the rest of my life with at a young age. People are rarely that lucky. And we have our issues just like any other couple. We fight like crazy but we always seem to make it work. I cant speak for him, but for me the fights are worth it. Like because even though we go through hell and back, the good times that we have together triumph over the bad ones. I’ve never cared so much about a person who wasnt in my family the way I do with him. It’s crazy and scary all at the same time. But sometimes it’s good to take risks, and I believe with love you should.
So thats been going on. Oh and my sister moved out. Dont tell her, but I actually miss the brat lol. Her and my niece always made the house loud and crazy. Now it’s just me and my mom. And me and my mom always bicker about something, so now I dont have my sister there to kind of play peace maker. But I guess things will work out with that. Hopefully…Its just difficult because she never understands me and she is always so quick to point out things I do wrong or things I could have done differently. I feel like she is so damn negative about everything. Like she acts like I dont consider all the possiblities. But I suppose I understand where she comes from. I havent always been the best of children. I’ve gotten in some pretty bug trouble when I was younger so I guess that effects a lot of how she sees me today. Understandable. I know that one day she will be proud of me, its just getting to that point is difficult, but I know I can do it. Ugh lol
Ohh and I think, actually Im almost 73% sure Im changing my major to psychology so I can go to med school. What I really want to do is be a surgeon, specifically a neurosurgeon. Yes I know it’s crazy and a lot to think about. But I’ve been thinking about it forever. I remember about a year or more ago I fell in love with the brain. I started reading all these articles about different clinical trials people were conducting to try to fix various issues that surrounded the brain. It was so fascinating. I watch dozens of psychological thrillers because I love how writers of the movies comes up with these crazy ideas. I love serial killers! Not in a weird way lol but like what posseses a person to kill and do these crazy things. There has to be a rational explanation of what goes on in their minds, right??? Interesting. Anything that has to do with the brain and its functions is so incredible to me. Like how humour can tell what part of the brain is more active then the other. That is so amazing to me. So for the past 3 or so months I’ve been going back and forth between psych and business. But then recently it hit me. Why settle for psych when I can just be a doctor? Why not go for it? I mean yes, psychology in itself is a doctor but why not be a surgeon? I can see first hand the brain, everything about it. What nerves connect to what and what nerves control what. I can save lives. How long have I been saying that I want to save the world? For like 15 years. I’ve never considered being a surgeon, but I’ve ALWAYS wanted to start a non profit organization so I can do good for others. And like my friend said “everything is a business”. Its like knocking three birds out with one stone.
But along with all of the perks come the downside. Am I willing to devote that much time and effort to school? Thats A HELL OF A LOT of studying. Not to mention the debt that I would be in. Giving up my social life. Potentially giving up the family that I’ve always wanted. Long, difficult, strenuous process. Extremely stressful. Depressing when Im not able to save someones life. A great deal of responsibility. I’ll have people’s lives in my hands. It’s a lot to consider and its not a decision that should be taken lightly. Geez, someone tell me what to do. Please and thank you :)
What do you think??
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